I can’t believe my first year of college is finally coming to an end. I literally have about 3 days left! As I sat and studied for my voice final I thought about all the things I’ve been through just to get to the place I am currently at. I’m very happy with how my life is unfolding, and I believe that it is because I made the decision that after high school I would live everyday as it was my last. Taken from one of my favorite musicals “Rent” it really is “No day but today”… I really live by that saying! I can not believe I am saying this, but as I look back at elementary school and high school.. I was the underdog! It’s absolutely nothing wrong with that! I do wish I made some better decisions like getting better grades, choosing a high school that suited me and my artistic needs, and socializing more, but everything really does happen for a reason. If I had done something differently I probably wouldn’t be who I am today. That is the hard working, dedicated, ambitious, and perservering Bernell. I’ve definitely had some set backs, but I’ve pushed on and created goals for myself and reached them! I’ve come to the realization that I am human, I make mistakes, and I will fail…A LOT! I will continue to push on though. Last year after not having a chance to really put myself out there and audition for all the schools that I wanted to and not getting into the ones that I did audition for. I really began to feel a tad bit depressed. Doubting questions went through my mind… Am I not talented enough? Do I need to find a reasonable career path? Am I stupid? I had to tell myself “I am GREAT!” everyday telling myself that and just pushing myself to the limits even more! That meant working a job to pay for voice and acting lessons on top of going to an open admissions school to take some of the theatre classes they offered. I really had to believe in myself! I am so proud to say that the belief that I had in myself has gotten me somewhere that I am so proud of. I got myself into one of the best conservatory programs in the US! Webster University’s Conservatory of Theatre Arts for Musical Theatre! Like before I will continute to push on and work as hard as I can. I have to continue to create goals for myself! I have to continue to live everyday as it’s my last, and most of all I have to continue to really believe in myself and throw away all the negative and doubting thoughts that may sneak up. I WILL definitely make the best out of my educational career and I am so ready to make the transition into the life of hard core training and preparing in the field of theatre!!!!!
